My Biggest Mistake

My biggest mistake was when I was a child and I decided to never show my feelings or admit I had any at all. I did this knowing any social life then would not be possible.

My second biggest mistake was getting out of the car when I was 17. I was in the garage with the door closed and the car running. Had I shown myself mercy then and died, I could have saved myself a lifetime of suffering. I stopped the engine on blind faith - a faith badly misplaced.

Death is my only friend now. Certainly none of you can be. Grant me mercy, God, it's been time to go for a long, long time.