Orange Blossom Trail

jeffrey was living the fantasy and my eyes stretched to see the into the pale blue crystal clear water where they stood side by side both topless with her flawless body she knew to be flawless and his charm he knew to be charming and they were smiling at each other in the bright florida sun but i strained only to see her ass as they wriggled along until the perfect pair came out of the water and i played it cold by pretending i had just noticed them and the flawless girl ran to the back of jeffrey's old ratty pickup where her girlfriend was laying out in the sun and they shared knowledge of what just happened and giggled in the thrill of it as i stared uncontrollably at the pickup girl's breasts and remembered she had been designated for me but she'd have nothing to do with me resenting my even breathing so i was relieved to see her friend distract her and make her happy so i'd be off the hook then they both put on bikini tops to their glistening bodies as jeffrey gathered them up to head into the bar and i followed along like a lost puppy and noticed a careless photograph just outside the door and i briefly wondered if i would be declared useful if i somehow returned it but everyone else had gone in not giving it a second thought and jeffrey was behind the bar because he knew the cool owners and he was grabbing a beer out of the cooler and i wondered if he grabbed one for me but i couldn't see his hands in the vast crowded room of this old metal building that was really crappy but nobody cared because of the scene inside and the bar had almost no open seats and when jeffrey sat down i finally saw he had only one beer and even though he was with the flawless girl i saw him talking right away to this cute blonde chick like he'd known her all his life as he oozed more of his practiced charm and i thought how even i wanted jeffrey to like me but i was on my own between the sex liquor and music so i struck a pose in case anyone was watching of someone who suddenly remembered he'd forgotten something very important and needed to go outside to get it but really i just needed to go outside and it was dark now with a cheap sign flashing in the parking lot as i stared at the passing cars of orange blossom trail thinking how i didn't even have a car and how i wished i had a nice one but jeffrey had only that ratty pickup and he did just fine so i started the long walk back to the house crossing to the other side like i was crossing the rubicon curious to know if anyone had noticed i was missing but knowing they did not and would not care if they did so i looked for companionship with the dive bars and auto shops and decaying industrials of this always busy road and i thought how strange to see these gleaming new tire rims untouchable like stars in the sky hanging off this old rusty rack outside a cheap shack selling old tires and older dreams never made whole but i had to make sure no one thought my dreams unbecoming so i assumed the purposeful air of a wanted man and when i looked back across the street i saw two girls sitting on stools out front of a small strip joint and one waved to me the cool secret agent in her eyes no doubt but i thought if she knew me she wouldn't waste her time or maybe all she cared about was in my wallet and that was empty too so my failure was complete and i thought "i have to get off this boulevard" where everyone can see me but when i strayed back behind to the hardcore houses the dogs and chain link fences did not welcome me as an outsider as i ran back to the road devising a cover story for my presence as a man without money or motive but all i could think about was how that damn car alarm going off down the block was annoying the hell out of me and how an internet friend asked me about the end of the world and i told her it was coming but nobody would admit doing wrong and she cringed saying she better put her money in a safe place and i told her when that time comes money won't mean anything more than the paper it's printed on just like now but no one admits that either and i had no answer then just like i had no answer now walking down orange blossom trail where no one cares about your insights just your scene but my air was wearing thin on that damn neverending road of despair so when i finally got close back to the house i ran through my weariness to be safe and unseen and i felt safeless as ever as i opened the fridge to get a beer thinking how everyone would laugh knowing i had to walk five miles to get a beer when jeffrey just reached around the bar for free to get one and by the light of the open fridge i saw my world and found it wanting so i turned on the tv as my portal to life and like always a late night bikini contest was on one of the local channels desperate for ratings so i obliged them marveling at the girls unafraid and free and i wondered how they ever got that way and i worshiped them as was my wont until finally i pulled the throw over my head on the couch but my dreams were haunted by my lonely evening walk and the coming inquisition of why i left the fun of orange blossom trail