Quietly

Quietly I stepped into her room and quietly I closed the door. She was fast asleep in the night, trusting the world.

What a fool!

She had a gun and a security system and a thousand mental guards - but none of that made her safe from the enemy within.

What a fool!

She needs to be educated to what reality is. She lives in a false paradise, an illusion of her own making. This ignorance can't go on forever. She has to be made aware. Everyone has to become aware.

The end has come. Her lies must die. She must see the light and be forever enlightened.

My lies must die too.

I put my hands around her neck.

Soon she'll know! Wake up! Wake up!

She awakens. Her eyes grow wide with fear and confusion. Ha! Ha! She wonders how this can be happening. She thought she had it all figured out.

You were blind to your own evil!

I'm too strong. She tries to rip my hands away but I have too much of a head start. Despair begins to flood her eyes.

Yes! Yes! Welcome to my nightmare! Feel it! Know it! Live it!

But she can't fully know until she sees death. It's the only way. The light is fading. She's running out of oxygen. Weaker are her death throes. All fighting is futile. Only in that one final moment does she understand.

If only I could live in that moment forever!

At work I quietly sit down at my desk, steaming cup of coffee next to me speaking of normalcy.

I hate this place! I hate acting like I'm not dying, that everything is fine.

No one notices a thing. Well, hardly notices. "You look refreshed this morning. Have an extra good night's sleep?"

"It was killer," the Office Strangler quietly replies. I get a thumbs up as I silently start my daily drowning.

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Two thousand miles away another man is dreaming of whom he can kill. Not just one, but as many as possible. He too must bring his nightmare to light, the endless agony of the lie.

I have the power to kill!

Those around him worship his evil power, thinking that makes them safe. When news of the Office Strangler comes to light they readily pounce as moral avengers, earning praise from their future victims.

Not everybody counts - thank God!

He has the power to kill and uses it, cutting off aid to a wrecked island in desperate need. He hears the reports and rejoices while strangling a nightly pillow: people forced to drink poisoned water, watching their children die before their eyes, trapped in a nightmare they cannot escape.

If only I could be there to see it with my own eyes!

The Oval Office Strangler eats his morning pop tart in glee watching future victims on TV defend his evil deeds, bringing aid and comfort to the killer, collecting souls on a daily basis, rejoicing as they  shipwreck their lives like his.

Quietly spreads the plague of death. Occasional voices express outrage and alarm but they are quietly dismissed as deranged lunatics by the deranged lunatics. Each day the angel of death quietly grips hearts and minds with silence as its sword. A scared populace knows where this leads but think it's best to keep quiet lest they be accused of treason to the demon.

An entire planet screaming in silence, believing there is no other way.

Why I Shot My Classmates

I don't understand why everyone keeps asking why. It's simple really. There are many reasons and it's always the same.

1. We live in an honest and true world. It's a place of support that values every human life. Money means nothing compared to the welfare of one single person. The world grows more human by the day! They say the world does not have to be perfect for us to survive. So there's nothing to ask of this world it isn't already doing.

2. My future is bright and unlimited. I can do whatever I want. I'll never be trapped in a dead end situation stripping all meaning from life. I am not drowning in raging frustration because I get all the love I need and want. I need never lie to have acceptance. With things this good, I want to live forever!

3. Our God is a good and caring God, looking out for every life. No one receives injustice in his lifetime. God fixes everything. God can do anything so that means I can have no possible problems. I need never feel cut off with God. I'm never abandoned, rejected, or alone. I'm always perfectly fine and to be anything else is unthinkable.

Now tell me, does anyone care to dispute those reasons? Why, I never hear them disputed, not even for a second! Day and night I hear them repeated over and over with everyone nodding his head in assurance. Who am I to doubt the wisdom of so many heroes?? I must keep any disagreement stuffed deep inside or the righteous will shout me down. I learn right and wrong from your anger.

But I'll tell you one thing, if those reasons above are not true, then can you tell me why the fuck I shouldn't shoot anyone?

When one person sins, we all sin.

He Asked Why

I heard a radio guy, Ed Wallace, who likes to talk about the economy and such ask why we don't build roads and other infrastructure like we used to. He quite rightly pointed out that those ancient endeavors paved the way for a rising economy for all. He considers the way we used to function as investing in our future and that's what took us to the top of the economic heap.

I don't disagree with any of that.

Then he said this. "And I don't understand for the life of me why we don't do that anymore." Ed's a smart guy and may or may not understand because the truth is too awful to face. For the simple reason is we don't invest for the future anymore is because we don't believe we have a future. Period.

Most of us are scrambling to get by. A much smaller slice is comfortably bribed and willing to look the other way as long as their lifestyle is not threatened. But those at the very top - who are free to see things the way they are - are the decision makers of how we proceed. They don't have to lie to themselves about what's going on. They realize that greedy people have no future. They realize that in any conspiracy it's the ones who betray it who go down.

So they see no way out but destruction. Why the fuck build roads for that?? Just take what you can get before it's all gone. You can see words to that effect in the emails sent right before the economic collapse of 2008. The world is just the same thing only on a larger scale. We are in our death throes. And for the record, no one who feels he has a future shoots up his school, either.

You can also hear the panic in their voices when they say, "Don't worry! It's been like this before!" Ever see a healthy person OD? Like any addict, as time goes on we forfeit pieces of our lives, we go through a downturn and suffer horribly. This is a warning sign, not a sign to keep on the same road as long as you didn't die! There's not much left to us at this point.

We don't have to live the way we do. We could trust to Nature and throw away all the artificial voodoo of our so-called systems of responsibility. We can give up our wicked ways voluntarily and move away from a greed based society or go through such horrific times we're forever cured of this insanity. And believe you me, the true and final horror has not yet begun to show itself. What we experince now is only the prelude.

Remember this when the angel of doom comes to visit you: let go of the past and embrace the future, because there certainly is one even if not as we currently choose to envision it.

Twisting The Wind

"That fucking fascist!"

"Yeah! Just who the hell does he think he is?"

"Telling us how we should think and act. Fuck that!"

"He'll be telling us how to wipe our asses next!"

"Fucking know-it-all! He's got no right to talk about us like that."

"Too right! 'Do this and do that or bad things will happen to you.'"

"That's fucking blackmail, that is!"

"All I want to do is live my life in peace. That guy is a real troublemaker, stirring up shit."

"Like everyone is supposed to all the sudden fucking change how we live. That's just plain nuts! Not going to happen!"

"He's a conformity king!"

"Exactly fucking right! Handing out mandates that would destroy our way of life. Outrageous!"

"Well, this freedom fighter won't be kept down!"

"I'll fuck up anyone who tries to take my freedom!"

"This is what's wrong with radicals. Nothing's ever good enough for the likes of them. Just want to throw out everything!"

"All I know is I ain't no fucking slave. A man's gotta be a man and stand up for what he believes in. I've worked too hard in my life just to give it all up."

"I'm fighting to the end. I don't care what it costs me down the line. That's just the kind of man I am."

"That fucking loudmouth got no use for anyone what isn't just like he is. Fricking snob."

"I can't stand those egalitarian elitists. Somebody's going to have to shut that dude up."

"Exactly! He's got no fucking idea what's going to happen to him if he keeps on like he is."

"Just can't save some people."

"I'm not even going to waste my time. I don't care what that Jesus dude says, I don't care about anyone but myself."

"Herod/Pilate in 0020! I'll forever fight for the freedom to fuck people!"